Sometime back, I did an informal reader survey to ask what kinds of things y'all like to see here. One response that came up consistently was a request for more slice of life stuff. That's hard for me because it feels like narcissism dialed up to 11, yet when I read slice of life stuff from other people, I love it.
I love stories.
I love stories with pictures.
So I thought I would start telling you a little of the story of what my life looks like right now. I'm going to call this series this is where . . . and I'll just share some snapshots and sentences that speak to life at this moment in time.
And so, this is where I live. We moved to this small town on the western plains of Oklahoma three years ago this week. I grew up in Oklahoma, but this is the furthest west I've ever lived in the state. The town we live in now is surrounded by acre after never-ending acre of farming and agriculture. Cattle graze and tractors rumble and there's probably the occasional antelope roaming. Definitely there are deer.
As you drive into our town from the east, you're greeted by a looming grain elevator. This is standard issue for every Oklahoma small town in which I've ever lived:
The picture at the top of the post is from the side of an old hotel where our downtown meets the railroad tracks. Evidently at some point in time, our small town was quite the hub of railroad action. Life was different in Oklahoma small towns in the twentieth century, and we now live in the shadows and scars of the oil boom bust of the 1980s:
This is our downtown. I realize at first glance it may look like we live in a one-stoplight town, and when we first moved here from just outside of Austin, it felt a little one-stoplight, but there are in fact more than a dozen stoplights here, all told.
Driving through the neighborhoods of our Old Town, it's hard to miss the duality of a community that once partied so hard with Lady Oil. It is not unusual at all to see a house like this:
where from the shady front porch, one could look over the white picket fence to this neighbor's house down the street:
Roughly 65% of Oklahoma's public school students are eligible for free/reduced lunches. In our town, that percentage hovers in the 75-80% range. When conversations like this one at Simple Mom come up, it's hard for me to bite my tongue through the "us" and "them" tone of the discussion, because the "them" are our friends and neighbors and they have been our entire lives.
But. That's another post for another day, I suppose.
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So, it's been three years since we moved to this little house on the prairie, and would you believe it's still hard for me to refer to here as our hometown? To say, this is where we are from?
I grew up in southern Oklahoma, and in a state that boasts an inviting array of landscapes, there is a remarkable difference between where we live now and where I am from.
Western Oklahoma has a very plains-and-prairie feel to it. There is a no-kidding prairie dog town less than twenty miles from our house, and a little further down that same highway, a large herd of buffalo graze the pasture.
But my childhood in Oklahoma was spent not on the plains, but in a region flooded with lakes and rivers and streams. Drive down I-35, through the Arbuckles (and we all laugh out the word Mountains, because these are no mountains; on their best day, they are big hills). Down, down to where Okies and Texans narrow their eyes at each other across the River Red.
Oh, the trees I have climbed. Oh, the shade I've been offered for hours of languid reading and quiet play. Oh, the stories I could tell of summers at the lake and the trouble we got into.
I try to take my girls as often as I can to the town that poured a foundation in my life. I take them so they can wade the cold waters and walk the rocky trails and climb the same exact tree their mother climbed as a little girl:
I used to be able to show them the church where I was baptized - buried with Him in baptism, raised to walk in newness of life - but that church no longer stands. Oh, the people are still there, but the building was sold and razed and became a parking lot for a casino.
If you have discovered that you can go home again, won't you please tell me how?
Much has changed since I was the little girl who chose to dress as an Indian on Pilgrims and Indians Day of Kindergarten (and don't we cringe? Did anyone even say Native American in Oklahoma in the early 80s?). Even then I was drawn to the shiny black hair and the gentle voice and the tragic story of the tribes who were forced to call this state home. Scratch the skin of anyone from here, and there's probably more than little native blood. Maybe it's the trace amounts of Cherokee in me that called me, even then, to seeing things from the point of view of Other.
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I stand in the cool waters that once offered healing for all and I know this is where my feet have always been, and somehow I know, this is where they will always be.
I surrender to the comfort of the familiar.
I acknowledge the complicated relationship I'll always have with this state.
Pieces of my heart are scattered across the country, from the shores of Lake Erie to the plazas of Kansas City to the hill country of Texas to the playful coast of California. I don't know that I would choose Oklahoma; it has always chosen me.
And so it keeps wooing my resistance, making me giggle with towns named Oolagah and tempting me with Indian tacos and charming me with sunsets that blaze beautiful over steady slopes.
And this. This is where I live.