I am balloons-in-the-sky, confetti-in-the-air excited because when I hit Publish on this post, I will have OFFICIALLY COMPLETED the 7 for 7 blogging challenge set forth by Jen of Conversion Diary.
This may well be the first time in the past year that I have actually finished a project I started. Both new moms and ENFPs everywhere know how superty amazing this is. Wheeeee!
I've thought a lot about blogging this week, perhaps more than I have thought about it in a long time. Here are some things I think I'm learning:
1) I have to change my work/write time.
Most of my book and many, many blog posts have been written by me in the early, pre-dawn hours. For this moment in time, however, I have to accept that the days of my beloved 5 AM Work Hour are over. Right now, 5 AM generally follows a night of broken sleep. Nighttime parenting times two is depleting and I don't have the creative juice to write a coherent sentence at 5 AM.
I've long been resistant to post-bedtime writing, but this week, it's the only space I've had to sit, think, and publish.
2) I am not a blog every day blogger.
Never have been. Never will be. I am beyond tired of myself right now.
3) I tend to blog more when ... I blog more.
Ha! You dig? For cuckoo crazy pants reasons, when it's been a long time since I last hit Publish, I get all worked up in my head over what Really Big Thing I'll return to blogging with, and it gets so built up in my mind that I get paralyzed. It's dumb, I know. But if I can find a consistent rhythm that keeps things active around here, I have every hope that I can continue to post with regularity.
4) I think a blogging schedule would be good for me.
Though there is no way I can blog every day, I am desperate for predictable systems in every realm of my life right now. I need to think on this, but I feel like a topical editorial schedule would make all the difference for managing this part of my life.
5) I don't have to publish perfect, profound, or plenteous posts every time.
I cannot even tell you how many posts never make it from my brain to the keyboard because I get all tripped up in perfectionism. (We creative types are ridiculously fragile creatures, aren't we?) Sometimes I just need someone to give me permission (again!) to write what I want to and not worry about publishing ALL AWESOME ALL THE TIME. (I mean, not that I've ever published all awesome all the time, but there is some part of my brain that is insistent on making that the goal.) (Dumb brain.)
6) I absolutely must prioritize the imperative over the urgent.
I'm not going to lie: I'm hugely behind on laundry. Though my most efficient work time came after all four babies were in bed, I worked on posts on and off throughout each day this week. With two infants and two big girls out of school, I have to devote an insane amount of intentionality to writing. If I wait until the laundry is done, folded, and put away and the dishes are taken care of and clutter is cleared and all of the urgent staring me in the face, I will never ever ever get to write.
But I need to write. I have to write. And so I must have some dedicated to it each day, and I really have to guard that precious time with a fierceness.
7) I love you all. So much. So very much.
There is no way I could have powered through and finished this challenge without the warm, loving, enthusiastic support y'all have given me. From interacting on Facebook to responding in comments to sending emails and messages, you have pushed me beyond what I thought I could do. Your positive energy carried me through. I wish I could give each of you a big squeeze and a giant kiss. And a cafe mocha (hot or iced, pick your pleasure).
Wish you could see the smile on my face right now. I did it. I really, really finished SOMETHING. And now I'm feeling mighty fine.