It's important to me, for many reasons, that you know the timeline of this decision. I am hyper-aware of my flakiness, and it's really important to me that you know that this announcement doesn't come lightly or off-the-cuff or easily.
I waited 48 hours last August from the moment I first knew I was closing SortaCrunchy, waited two full days before I told Kyle. "Really?" He raised his eyebrows, but squeezed my hand tightly in the wake of my resolve.
I waited over a month before I began to tell other people. It made my voice tremble, but I was glad to be saying it. There was a deep sadness in making myself form the words. I'm closing the blog. But always under the sadness, there was a buoyancy and a breathiness that made it easier to say each time.
It explains, truly, the quietness this fall. In true ENFP fashion, I had to go way under to process the feeeeeeelings that surfaced at the thought of boarding up the windows on this long-time home of mine. I wavered and questioned and wondered. I indulged an inexcusable amount of naval-gazing, sorting out how so much of my identity had become so entwined in being a blogger. I didn't trust myself to tell you then, while all of the hard stuff was knocking on the door and demanding to be dealt with. I actually didn't trust myself to tell anyone. I knew it was a season for inward work, so I extended myself the grace to do just that.
And I am thankful I did that because now I can say without a waver in my voice, I can say it with clarity and confidence and genuine peace that on December 31st, as I finish out my eighth year of blogging, I'll be closing SortaCrunchy.
To answer a few questions I've received:
- No, I'm not leaving the internet all together. My Instagram and Pinterest accounts are going nowhere. Most importantly, I'll continue to lead and enjoy the incredible community we have on Facebook. (No seriously. You're the envy of many a blogging friend of mine, if you'll excuse my bragging on you for a moment. You all are THE BEST.)
- Yes, I'll leave SortaCrunchy and all of its archives right where it is. At least for now. I just won't be publishing new content here.
- Why am I officially closing it? Because I'm at a point where I can say that blogging has brought more to my life than I ever, ever could have imagined, but the time is right to move on. Because as a lifelong, certified non-finisher, I need to be able to put an actual end point on a project, to know that I intentionally brought something to a close. And because even when I'm not actively blogging, just knowing this place is sitting here with an absentee landlord, not being attended to ... I don't know how to explain it other than to say that it takes up more mental real estate than I am willing to give to it.
And now to the last call part:
As I have mentioned, words and ideas are hard to come by these days. I figured maybe I could ask you to help me close up the place by giving you the chance to ask me anything you've ever wanted to ask me. A last call for topics to address, answers to share. If you have such a question, click here and let me know.
I'll try to get to all that I can between now and the end of the year. I'll save the other questions for my next endeavor, the As-Of-Yet-Untitled Podcast Project. *grin*
There's so much to say before I say the last goodbye here, but I'll save that for December. Thank you so much for joining me in this space. You all mean the world to me.